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My Wife, Multiple Sclerosis, and an Eternal Perspective

My beautiful and incredible wife wrote this after being re-diagnosed with M.S. this last week. I wanted to share this in hopes that it not only tell her story, but more Christ’s story and the magnitude of what He has done and is doing in her life……..

So after 7 years of remission from Multiple Sclerosis, it’s back again. After losing vision in the lower right quadrant of both of my eyes, I knew something was off. Turns out that a lesion from the MS had become inflamed and was putting pressure on the part of my brain responsible for that line of vision. So after two weeks of doctors appointments the result is that MS is still in my body. Surprisingly, I have taken the news so much better than I expected. I have a peace and joy that I know can only be from God. It’s quite amazing, and quite beautiful to see the grace of God at work!

So I could be questioning God right now. Why did my symptoms suddenly disapear 7 years ago only to find out now that MS is still in my body? Did You really heal me? All the answers to these questions I don’t know. But I do know that God is sovereign over all and He gives grace to His children. I know that He did heal me of my symptoms for 7 years and that is a beautiful thing. He allowed me to be symptom free as I was growing in my relationship with Him and coming to a dependence on Him. The difference between my initial diagnosis at 19 and me now at 27 is that I know who I am in Christ. I know that my body is a temporary thing. It is not eternal. Why should I fret over temporary things? My treasure is in heaven with the creator of my body! This doesn’t give me a license to mistreat or abuse my body through lack of care for it, as it is a temple of the Holy Spirit, but it means that I use my life to bring Him glory in any way that I can and don’t allow the fact that this temporary shell may be falling away, to get me depressed or upset. My body is His temple, where He resides, I will take care of it to the best of my ability through nutrition, exercise, and rest, but I will not be caught off guard when I find that my temporary home on this earth may have a few cracks in it’s foundation. God is still God, and I love him.

So I take joy and great hope in the sovereignty of my Creator. I pray that I will have a realization daily that the temporary things of this life will all fall away at some point, and that my treasure is Christ, His redeeming and saving hand in my life. What a hope I have to know that I am loved and cared for by the almighty Creator of the Universe!

Are you investing your time, thoughts, worries in temporary things? Or can your affections be found in the one who is affectionately pursuing you?

Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts!

Filed under: Family, Gospel, Growth and Journey, Jesus, Life

Full Transcript from Dr. Kings, “I have a dream” speech

I am happy to join with you today in what will go down in history as the greatest demonstration for freedom in the history of our nation.

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand today, signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of their captivity.

But one hundred years later, the Negro still is not free. One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languished in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land. And so we’ve come here today to dramatize a shameful condition.

In a sense we’ve come to our nation’s capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir. This note was a promise that all men, yes, black men as well as white men, would be guaranteed the “unalienable Rights” of “Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.” It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note, insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check, a check which has come back marked “insufficient funds.”

But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation. And so, we’ve come to cash this check, a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice.

We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of Now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to make real the promises of democracy. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood. Now is the time to make justice a reality for all of God’s children.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment. This sweltering summer of the Negro’s legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. And those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. And there will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights. The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges.

But there is something that I must say to my people, who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice: In the process of gaining our rightful place, we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred. We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. We must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again, we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.

The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to a distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny. And they have come to realize that their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.

We cannot walk alone.

And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall always march ahead.

We cannot turn back.

There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, “When will you be satisfied?” We can never be satisfied as long as the Negro is the victim of the unspeakable horrors of police brutality. We can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the negro’s basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as our children are stripped of their self-hood and robbed of their dignity by signs stating: “For Whites Only.” We cannot be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until “justice rolls down like waters, and righteousness like a mighty stream.”¹

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow jail cells. And some of you have come from areas where your quest — quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive. Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to South Carolina, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed.

Let us not wallow in the valley of despair, I say to you today, my friends.

And so even though we face the difficulties of today and tomorrow, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal.”

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia, the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood.

I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a state sweltering with the heat of injustice, sweltering with the heat of oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice.

I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character.

I have a dream today!

I have a dream that one day, down in Alabama, with its vicious racists, with its governor having his lips dripping with the words of “interposition” and “nullification” — one day right there in Alabama little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and brothers.

I have a dream today!

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, and every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight; “and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together.”2

This is our hope, and this is the faith that I go back to the South with.

With this faith, we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith, we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith, we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

And this will be the day – this will be the day when all of God’s children will be able to sing with new meaning:

My country ’tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing.

Land where my fathers died, land of the Pilgrim’s pride,

From every mountainside, let freedom ring!

And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true.

And so let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire.

Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York.

Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania.

Let freedom ring from the snow-capped Rockies of Colorado.

Let freedom ring from the curvaceous slopes of California.

But not only that:

Let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia.

Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee.

Let freedom ring from every hill and molehill of Mississippi.

From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

And when this happens, when we allow freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God’s children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual:

Free at last! Free at last!

Thank God Almighty, we are free at last!3

Filed under: Atlanta, Grant Park, Justice

Dr. King, His Dream, Grant Park, and our Vision

Dr. King grew up less than a mile from my home, and Grant Park, the neighborhood where we are planting Renovation. He has had a profound influence on my life, as well as this area, and there is little I can say that hasn’t been said. Every year I watch/listen to this speech to remind me of what he fought for, and what we are still fighting for through the gospel.

Yes the gospel reconciles men to God, but it is big, vast, and beautiful, reconciling men to one another as well. This was Dr. Kings dream, a world made right, equal, and just. The gospel does this, and Christ said the Kingdom has come, and we have to live in that reality. As Dr. King had a dream, we borrowed from that language, and we too have a dream of Renovation being a church that would in our lives, fully embody, express and extend God’s values to shape and guide us in joining Jesus in His mission to see Atlanta become a beautiful city: restored physically, culturally, and spiritually through the gospel.

I can only hope that our dream will continue to build on the one Dr. king so passionately presented to a torn nation 47 years ago. And that I can lead a people to serve this community, his community, the way he once did….full of grace and truth.

Filed under: Atlanta, Church, Gospel, Grant Park, Jesus, Justice, Mission, Renovation Church

A Second Update from Haiti

Please read the Livesay Blog to get continued updates from people on the inside

Thursday

I don’t know how long the internet will hold up. Follow Troy’s tweets for information.

Many roads are blocked by fallen buildings. MANY people walking around with open and serious wounds. It is hard to travel freely to the areas you’ve asked us to check, that is why we don’t have that information for you.

The deceased are being dragged to the side of roads, covered in sheets and left. We don’t live in the hardest hit areas but even so there are many bodies.

Everything in Haiti (PRE earthquake) runs on generators and inverters and batteries == sometimes (pre earthquake) we get a city power current. Now there is no city current. Right now the Internet companies need to use diesel and generators to offer us service. It won’t likely last … and will come and go. We’ll do our best to stay in touch. Diesel is going to go fast and will be needed for any sort of communication.

Pray.

tara

You are asking what you can do … we are going to need Diesel, Water, Food … things you cannot really easily do. SO – give money. The two organizations Troy and I work with and for both need help and are both reputable. The giant organizations are fine too if that is what you prefer. Money is the number one need (and ability to purchase the supplies) and MEDICAL PERSONNEL. Coming down if you are not willing to risk and get in and clean out horrific wounds would just tax an already taxed place. Medical professionals should contact organizations with the ability to coordinate efforts and try to get here. It won’t help to have more non-medical people to feed and house. Hope that does not sound harsh – but it is truth.

Filed under: Random

A Message from Haiti

This is from the Livesay Blog, a family that has given their lives to Haiti for the cause of the gospel

The Morning After – Earthquake Haiti 2010

The sun is about to come up. The aftershocks continue. Some more noticeable than others. There is no way to even begin to share the things we’ve heard and seen since 5pm yesterday. To do so would take hours that we don’t have to give right now. Some of them feel wrong to tell. Like only God should know these personal horrible tragedies.

The few things we can confirm – yes the four story Caribbean Market building is completely demolished. Yes it was open. Yes the National Palace collapsed. Yes Gov’t buildings nearby the Palace collapsed. Yes St Josephs Boys home is completely collapsed. Yes countless countless – countless other houses, churches, hospitals, schools, and businesses have collapsed. There are buildings that suffered almost no damage. Right next door will be a pile of rubble.

Thousands of people are currently trapped. To guess at a number would be like guessing at raindrops in the ocean. Precious lives hang in the balance. When pulled from the rubble there is no place to take them for care Haiti has an almost non existent medical care system for her people.

I cannot imagine what the next few weeks and months will be like. I am afraid for everyone. Never in my life have I seen people stronger than Haitian people. But I am afraid for them. For us.

When the quake hit it took many seconds to even process what was happening. The house was rocking back and forth in a way that I cannot even begin to describe. It felt fake. It felt like a movie. Things were crashing all over the house. It felt like the world was ending. I do not know why my house stands and my children all lie sleeping in their beds right now. It defies logic and my babies were spared while thousands of others were not.

There are friends and co-workers that are missing. People whom no-one can account for. People we work with and love. There are more than I can name, but in particular we wait on one single friend who lived near the Hotel Montana – which has reportedly collapsed.

The horror has only just begun and I beg you to get on your knees – I truly mean ON YOUR KNEES and pray for the people of this country. The news might forget in a few days – but people will still be trapped alive and suffering. Pray. Pray. Pray. After that – PLEASE PRAY.

Tara for all of us

PS- We will try to find out answers to many questions, but please know we are doing our best – we do not take your concerns lightly. I cannot guarantee we will find all the answers to things being asked. If you asked about a person and you learn they are safe. Please take the time to report back so we don’t waste or double energy or efforts.

Filed under: Random

Ignorant Georgians: Your Context, and What’s Around it

Cleburne statue unveiled in Ringgold
by Mark Andrews
Cannons go off behind the Gen. Cleburne statue during the Sat., Oct. 3 unveiling ceremony. (Catoosa News/Mark Andrews) Citizens, history buffs and members of the community came to Ringgold’s confederate park on Saturday, Oct. 3, to witness the unveiling of a bronze statue commemorating Gen. Patrick Cleburne. The first annual Ringgold Gap Civil War festival followed for the rest of the day on Robin Road.

Cleburne and the statue

On Nov. 25, 1863, Cleburne used the Ringgold Depot as an anchor to conceal men and cannons, waiting for Union troops. He was charged with the task of holding off approaching Union troops so the Confederates could safely withdraw.

When the line arrived, the Confederate troops fired on them until their retreat. Cleburne then moved his troops to his flanks and stalled the advance of Union troops with 4,100 men versus 12,000.

“This event will put Ringgold on the map,” said Stephen McKinney, a civil war historian and event coordinator.

Cartwright said Cleburne was one of the “few ‘true’ heroes of all time.”

“I believe the most important day of (Cleburne’s) life was on the Battle of Ringgold Gap,” Cartwright said.

This celebration took place less than an hour from my home…from dowtown Atlanta, where we are planting a multi-cultural, racial reconciliation seeking church, Renovation.

This statue unveiling for them was a joyous occasion, celebrating the South’s “stand” against the aggression of the North in trying to alter their “way of life.” To me, and many others this celebration represents the ignorance of a people holding on to a time that I am fighting to dissolve the remnants of through the gospel.

Though you wouldn’t think so, what happens here, an hour from my home, affects everything we do downtown because of how it influences the thoughts, lives, and actions of those downtown in fueling seeds of deep hurt and resentment already present. It is also necessary to consider the children of the individuals who participated in this celebration who now live in the city, and bring with them the roots of this mentality.

All this to say that as a pastor, it is not only your context to consider in how and who to engage with the gospel, but also the context around you and possibly oppressive and divisive forces inherent within them.

Filed under: Atlanta, Culture, Gospel, Grant Park, Renovation Church

Why I’m Ashamed to be a Christian

I am not ashamed of Christ. He is the One true God, and saviour to all who receive the gospel, and I pray everyday that He would be my greatest treasure….He is ALL!!

But, Westboro Baptist, and those like them in various forms have made me ashamed to call myself a Christian, if they are what people associate with Christianity. You may be familiar with Westboro, and their hate filled leader from Kansas. In 1999 they picketed the funeral of Matthew Shepherd simply because he was homosexual. They frequently picket the funeral’s of dead soldiers, and are renowed for even picketing outside a Jewish primary school. In fact they spend $350,000 annually picketing various things and people they feel God hates.

They have become famous for this, when as Christians, it is only the fame of Christ and His glory that we should seek in all endeavors.

Though they recorded their first song, “God hates the world” a couple years ago, it was their latest nonsense that caught my attention on the radio this morning.

Recently they released a statement, flyers, and a song declaring God’s hate for Lady Gaga. I was shamed as I heard the morning show crew discuss this with contempt as they judged Christians and Christ by the measure of these hate fill pharisee’s. The song, a parody of “poker face”  repeats over and over  again “God hates you.” Referring to Lady Gaga.

Here is the reality of it all. The scriptures say in 2 Peter 3:9, “The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.” Does this mean that all will come to receive Christ, and come to repentance, no. Does it mean that God hates people, surely not.

God hates sin, not people, not the world. He despises it, and despised it so much that He bore the weight of all sin, so that He might save some. He became sin, so that we would not have to endure it forever or be away  from Him forever…so that some might be drawn to Him by His Spirit, and saved. Does this sound like hate or absolute and unconditional love unknown to the human heart outside of God?

Westboro, you are shameful, and you make me ashamed…my only solace is that God will judge one day. He will judge your misrepresentation of him, your waste of money to propagate hate when you could have been funding the mission of God (to save and serve), and He will judge your self-righteousness.

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22 On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ 23 And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.”

Filed under: Church, Controversy, Gospel, Jesus, Worldview

Meditation

“We have some idea, perhaps, what prayer is, but what is meditation? Well may we ask, for meditation is a lost art today, and Christian people suffer grievously from their ignorance of the practice. Meditation is the activity of calling to mind, and thinking over, and dwelling on, and applying to oneself, the various things that one knows about the works and ways and purposes and promises of God.”—J.I. Packer

As Packers statement so eloquently captures, we have lost something in our faith…something central to it. Meditation is an old and beautiful practice among faithful followers of Jesus, and has been for generations.

The reason it is so often avoided is because we have been [persuaded in western culture, from Eastern mystics that the only form of meditation is that practiced by Buddhist an others, in which one seeks to clear their minds of all thoughts as to become one with one’s self. First, it is impossible to clear your mind of all thought, because it never shuts down, even when sleeping, this is why we dream.

True and right spiritual meditation is, as Packer said, dwelling on and indulging in who God is, so that you have a clearer picture of who you are in Christ. this brings the confidence that allows us to boldly approach Him in prayer, and have expectation that He is listening and will answer.

I encourage as this year begins to renew this practice in your own life. Take time to get alone, and meditate on the attributes of God. Find scriptures that exalt those attributes most clearly, and meditate on them. This will bring a renewed intimacy with and confidence in the Triune God, and His intentions towards you.

Filed under: Gospel, Growth and Journey

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